It is hard to believe it is December. We are less than two weeks from Christmas now and today, the sun is shining brightly and the temperature is in the forties.
So I should be feeling bright....but we know better.
My husband found a website I will share, one that I think is very good and possibly vital to some reading this.
I have Borderline Personality Disorder(BPD). I was diagnosed in the year 2005, when I began to injure myself. I will not go in to detail about that; it has the possibility of "triggering" that behavior in someone with BPD who may read this. Suffice it to say, parts of my body are still scarred.
The underlying symptom of BPD is an intense fear of being abandoned. It seems that the other symptoms are all linked to this. This fear most often results from a real or perceived abandonment by a very significant figure in one's life, somewhere during one's childhood.
It took me a very long time to understand the roots of my illness. Unfortunately, that realization by itself does not "cure" the disorder. It is lifelong. It requires much honest work, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
Other disorders often accompany BPD-in clinical terms, are "comorbid". Addiction and depression are common. I personally cannot say I have escaped them.
But, there is hope. I do not want anyone reading this to think otherwise! Where would any of us be without hope? I believe, however, that hope is a choice. We have to choose to grab it and hang on to it.
As I write this, I have to say the fear is lessening just a bit. We are talking and trying to cope, hoping more counseling, more of that honest hard work will pay off in the end. Even though we are apart, in some ways this is a joint struggle. This is a struggle to survive and maybe eventually, to thrive.
If you or anyone you know is dealing with BPD, the following website is one you really should look at. If you are not sure that you or a loved one has this disorder, there is a list of symptoms to check out. And if you want help, there are links to that, as well.
Today-a new day-I choose to have hope.
Facing the Facts
So I should be feeling bright....but we know better.
My husband found a website I will share, one that I think is very good and possibly vital to some reading this.
I have Borderline Personality Disorder(BPD). I was diagnosed in the year 2005, when I began to injure myself. I will not go in to detail about that; it has the possibility of "triggering" that behavior in someone with BPD who may read this. Suffice it to say, parts of my body are still scarred.
The underlying symptom of BPD is an intense fear of being abandoned. It seems that the other symptoms are all linked to this. This fear most often results from a real or perceived abandonment by a very significant figure in one's life, somewhere during one's childhood.
It took me a very long time to understand the roots of my illness. Unfortunately, that realization by itself does not "cure" the disorder. It is lifelong. It requires much honest work, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
Other disorders often accompany BPD-in clinical terms, are "comorbid". Addiction and depression are common. I personally cannot say I have escaped them.
But, there is hope. I do not want anyone reading this to think otherwise! Where would any of us be without hope? I believe, however, that hope is a choice. We have to choose to grab it and hang on to it.
As I write this, I have to say the fear is lessening just a bit. We are talking and trying to cope, hoping more counseling, more of that honest hard work will pay off in the end. Even though we are apart, in some ways this is a joint struggle. This is a struggle to survive and maybe eventually, to thrive.
If you or anyone you know is dealing with BPD, the following website is one you really should look at. If you are not sure that you or a loved one has this disorder, there is a list of symptoms to check out. And if you want help, there are links to that, as well.
Today-a new day-I choose to have hope.
Facing the Facts
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